For 13 years I was disabled and struggling. It was a slow process to get myself to where I am today. At one point I had a nagging feeling that the diagnosis of Bipolar was incorrect as none of the treatment was working and all the drugs only made me worse and worse. I wouldn’t learn until after Christs visit that he was the one pushing me to look in different areas for a solution.
Eventually I gave in and started talking to extended family members and found all the men in my father’s family had one issue. Hypogonadism (low testosterone levels) – I started searching for someone to test me and went through a few doctors until I convinced one to run a test and I would just pay cash for it. He did it I think to shut me up but it came back I was low.
He sent me to an endocrinologist who confirmed the test and started treatment. I saw immediate effects of this and not exactly in a positive way.
The other medications for bipolar started producing horrible side effects and I started to back off them one by one until I stopped taking each medication. I was seeing an improvement in my mood and the fog in my mind started to clear up. This angered the psychiatrists but hey #SorryNotSorry..lol. The big thing was I was improving while on the testosterone without the bipolar medications.
Odd thing that after some time off that medication I was starting to have emotions of caring again. No one ever told me that the medication would make me not care about others or it would suppress the need for others.
The one downfall is the last medication I was on was a benzodiazepine. It was horrible to go off of myself but the doctors wouldn’t help me with a plan of going off of it so I was forced to do it myself. It was like being tortured each time I would reduce the dosage. I went through chills and fevers as well as not being able to move for several days. For two years after I went off of the medication, I could not sleep for more than a few minutes at a time. I still have damage from this as I lost all my physical strength going through that and still haven’t gotten it back yet. I have faith God will help me through this issue as well in his good timing.