I still had depression and loneliness problems but the spring of 2021 I decided to start reading the bible just to see what was in there. I was getting a push from somewhere to do that. I had questions and still could hear the things I was told when I was younger circling around in my mind and wanted the answer to the question of did God hate me or did, he love me like the Christians said he did.
I started reading online but ended up buying a bible from Amazon. I spent time in the Old Testament going through Genesis and Exodus but eventually felt a strong push to read the New Testament.
For the first time in my life, I was able to read the words using a simple translation (NIV) bible that wasn’t the King James Version I had so much problems with (and still do). The thing is I knew the story of Christ’s life and death that had been told to me, but something started to grow in me as I read the actual words. I found a truth denied to me by myself and the enemy for so many years. The truth that Christians told me, but I would just not let myself believe.
The truth that Jesus does loves me completely and unconditionally.